my cousin going back on 27th.

on 18th we gent to a wedding dinner.

the food quite okay la.

me and my cousin take alot pic.

but lazy to update.

some more now in puchong cannot update.

my dear 20th come to my house.

until 11 sumthing only went back.

scolded by his dad but not that fierce.

between my dad and mom nothing to him.

24th we going to ioi mall and he will come to my house to sleep.

but maybe he will sleep with my cousin in 1 room.

haha.

in this holiday.

quite boring to me.

cause i didn't go anywhere.

accept singapore.

don't know what to write anymore.

just waiting back to my subang house.

then can update my pic.

haha.

today morning's mood not that good.

but when almost reach 8 p.m.

my mood suddenly become good already.

just because i receive some of his massage gua.

i don't know why.

all my feelings and my mood also because of him and change.

maybe he really very important in my life.

i couple with him.

i can feel that i change alot.

i listen what he say.

he say i can go only i go.

he say no mean no.

in my heart.

only my grandmother and my singapore aunty treat my good.

but now not same already.

plus he is already 3.

hope this is enough for my life.

but some day.

i really hope that he can pass by my blog and read my blog.

so can know what is my feelings.

but anyway,

i really hope he will be my side 4ever in my life.

:P

today i don't know what happen to me.

i keep thinking that things happen.

izit my problem?

or this is not anyone's problem?

i wanna to find it out u love me more or love her more.

but i don't dare to ask.

i scare the answer is not the one that i want.

i just keep silence and didn't do anything.

because i know that i can't do anything between us.

i just pretend nothing happen between us be4.

today don't know why my head very pain.

pain till feel like wanna die.

till now also still pain.

just know...

now not only my head pain...

my heart also keep having tears out...

i can't control my tears anymore...

even every night my tears also feel like coming out...

hope i can control.

but i don't know which day...

it will drop down again...

plus today i keep scold by my grandmother.

really feel like wanna die in this moment.

stay in this world like no use at all.

in study?

like a stupid people like that?

in house?

all people like to scold me even i didn't do wrong just because i am the eldest?

in everything i like cannot do at all.

i don't know why.

why everyone look like hate me?

did i do wrong anything?

if yes.

please tell me.

because now i really very tired and suffering.

english.

after i saw yr blog.

i suddenly feel that u need her more then me.

really!

i suddenly that feel that want to break with u.

but i know that i really love u.

don't want to break with u.

in this moment i really want to msg u that can we break?

i really don't know what to do anymore.

i everyday also scared.

feel like want to cry.

don't u know?

if one day i suddenly call u and tell u,

i will leave u 4ever what u will do?

will u come find me?

will u cry?

o u will do nothing?

do u think before my feeling?

if one day i tell u that i don't love u anymore.

u will belive?

don't belive.

chinese.

wo bu zhi dao wo xian zai de xin qing shi zen yang.

wo hen xin ku.

wo de yan lei hen xiang liu xia lai le.

wo de xin li hen qing chu zhi dao.

ni ai ta duo guo wo.

dan wei shen me wo hai yao qiang bi zi ji?

wei shen me wo hai yao jian ci xia qu?

wo ming ming yi jing zhi dao le.

wei shen me shuo you de ren dou yao jiang dui wo.

wei shen me bu zao yi dian gao shu wo zhen xiang wo?

huo shu wo de chun zai shi duo yu de.

huo shu wo ben lai jiu bu ying gai gen ni zai yi qi.

huo shu wo men ying gai yao geng duo de shi jian.

huo shu ni shi zhen de ai ta duo guo wo?

hi,everyone.

i was back from singapore few weeks ago,

i went to my mommy's house because my cousin all coming,

it's very boring cause their topic i don't know what to say,

but at the moment we play together,

is really happy.

i went to ioi mall few days ago,

with my cousin cause they want to go back already.

he also going.

ya,that day is quite happy.

it's true.